| I have always been a fan of God. Ever since I was seven and gave my
heart to Jesus on the top of my bunk bed Jesus has been sort of an
obsession of mine. When I turned 18 and was baptized in the Spirit I
began to believe that not only did i love Him with all of my heart, but
that I was being haunted by this creepy feeling that wouldn't leave. I
awakened to the reality that He wasn't just a figure of a man far away,
but that he lived on the inside of me. And there began my fascination
with the Breath of Heaven, also know as Holy Spirit. Over the
course of 7 plus years i've plundered christian bookstores buying up
anything I could find concerning the Spirit, his personality and all
His activities. Benny Hinn's "Good Morning Holy Spirit" became a
classic favorite of mine seeing as it was freakin' Benny Hinn and from
watching him make people fall down on television he MUST know something
about the moving of the Spirit. My search led me many different places
geographically and emotionally (I have even moved cities a few times so
I could be places I believe the Spirit was moving). I quickly
discovered that many people have MANY different ideas, thoughts,
revelations, and doctrines concerning the Spirit. I experienced the joy
of some these and the abundant possibilities they opened up but I also
came to the pits as well. One such time came from wrestling with my
father over whether we should pray to and worship the Holy Spirit,
Jesus, or just the Father. I think brother Benny got some flak for that
one too. Needless to say, I became confused and quite honestly found
myself in a few crises of faith concerning the blatant contradictions
that many of my favorite authors carried. How could godly men and women
who loved Jesus and His Spirit disagree very strongly on the nature,
character, and activity of the very life and breath of God on the
inside of all of them? This was a mystery that seemed to hang over me
for quite some time. Just when I felt like a had good understanding I
would read another book that would pummel the core values and belief
that the last author I read carried. What was I to do? After
picking up the pieces of my faith in the reality of the indwelling
Spirit I began to go on a personal journey to discover the Spirit that
lived inside of me. From that place I was able to determine which
spiritual leaders I would allow to speak into my life and which ones I
wouldn't. Not that the others were bad or even off doctrinally (though
some I felt were) but I didn't feel the need to receive from every
prophet, teacher, or evangelist that popped up in the bookstore or the
internet begging for me to purchase their new book. Much
maturity came to me in these times as I realized that leaders are
allowed to have differing opinions and still maintain a unity in faith.
I took spiritual leaders off pedestals and gave much grace for their
own journey into the discovery of the knowledge of God. I saw that
cultural, racial, & ministerial backgrounds play a huge role in our
thinking and interaction with the Spirit. And thus, bringing me to my
favorite topic. I love the Prophetic! I love it so much
that I will bear those annoying emails from the elijah list just to get
to those one or two that are just for me.(though i know many of you
have given up after spending hours reading prophecies that made no
sense or left you confuse) Even with all the dangers, pitfalls, and
hassles I still think prophecy is the best thing ever! Many guys have
their thing they "get off" on so to speak. Some go speed racing, dirt
biking, surfing, off roading, hiking, and so forth. For me, it's
getting prophetic revelation and soaring the heights of that wild eagle
and watching God create & release supernatural evidences of his
power on the hearts and bodies of humanity, the objects of obsession!!!
(and yes i know I still need to get a fun hobby  .....it's coming)
so yeah, i'm one of those goofy prophetic kids
whose got his wind sail up and waits for the slightest movement of the
Spirit. I expect God to do wild and crazy things while I take note to
what repeated combination of numbers I see on my clock. I know signs
and wonders follow me because even as I write this I see my angels
flashing light at me with my natural eye! So if that's not enough,
I've been affected by renewal so therefore I can't help but to shake
and bake a little bit when He shows up! Nothing gives me more pleasure
than to feel the wind of the Spirit and to let my body go with it. I
was born to make whole worlds out of God moments and then to live in
them for as long as I can. So as you can guess, Prophetic Worship is my
favorite context for experiencing this and feeling the presence. Plus,
If the Spirit is not moving I make the Spirit move by faith. All in
all, it's a win - win situation for me. So if I'm not feeling God I
prime the water pump of my spirit until I experience a breakthrough in
my soul. I say all this to say that though I find myself in the
desert of Kansas City I'm intrigued even more as of late with the
reality of the winds of God, prophetic swirls, signs in the earth, and
wonders in the heavens. I've had some strange encounters lately and
they seem to be getting more frequent. I believe we must become open
and familiar with the strange things of God, the wildness of His heart
and the endless possibilities that one word from Him can create. It's
time to shake off that fear of man and all that pride relat ed to these
things and give ourselves wholeheartedly. It's time to make this desert
a spring!
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